Found It

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I have spent the past two years searching for My Thing through this blog.  I think I may have found it.

In hindsight, it was pretty much staring me in the face the whole time.  Yup, I know.  I can be a bit thick sometimes.  So while I may never write the great Canadian novel, I think it’s safe to say that my creative outlet is putting pen to paper.  Or perhaps fingertips to iPad would be more appropriate.

There I said it.  I love to write.

Some of the most satisfying moments in the past months have been the ones just after hitting the publish button.  It’s an odd rush of “Yes, I’m done” and “Wow, I finished another one”.  It’s interesting to see how my writing style changed over the months.  My first couple of posts were pretty wordy and involved long descriptive paragraphs.  The later ones are a bit more choppy.  I’m not sure if it’s just how my thought process changed or if realized that it was just easier for people to read it that way.  Whatever the reason, I have enjoyed every minute.

But I’m not going to lie.  I have wished, more than a few times, that more people read my posts.  That’s when my most trusted adviser gently reminded me, that wasn’t why I was writing.  I was writing to explore my life and express myself.  (Ya, I know, sometimes I expressed myself a little too much)  But it felt good.  It felt right.  So I kept doing it.

Oddly enough, since having this epiphany about writing being my thing, I’ve been stuck with no ideas and nothing flowing in my head.  I started numerous post but never got past the first sentence.  Panic started to set in.  What was happening?

Some would call it writers block.  I call it damned annoying.

And worst of all, I just couldn’t figure out why.  It was infuriating and caused hours, perhaps days, of gut wrenching soul searching.  (Okay, a bit of an exaggeration). I tried to work through it by spending some time drinking wine in Whistler and heading out for numerous runs. Trying to nudge the process along.  I was willing to do whatever it took.  I’m dedicated that way.

But then I remembered that this was something else that I’ve learnt these past two years.

Everything comes when it’s supposed to.  And it did.

I realized that the time I have spent with friends and acquaintances in the past two years learning about them, and in turn me, has been enlightening and rewarding.  Not to mention a lot of fun.  I’ve seen what it means to be passionate about something.  Truly passionate. I’ve been given advice and I’ve give some out myself.  I’ve rekindled friendships that had faded and realized that people I hardly knew were wicked interesting.  Despite already being middle aged I’ve grown up.

But here’s the kicker.  Now that I’ve come to this momentous conclusion, I’m  feeling like I need a change. Don’t worry, I’m still interested in exploring the Best Things in Life.  I just think that it may look a little different.

I’m not exactly sure how…..but that’s the Best Thing in Life.  You don’t always know what’s around the corner.

 

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7 thoughts on “Found It

  1. Lisa May 24, 2016 / 6:33 pm

    Well written. I’ve come to your blog late Susan and I’ve read many past posts. I love personal writing. I too love to write but pause on calling myself a writer (due to confidence) and have not jumped in with a blog. I know it’s one of my things I’m most passionate about and I also believe it will come when it’s supposed to. In the meantime, I piece together the shape of the book I do want to write (regardless of an audience) and I record bits in my phone and type in notes on my phone randomly. All in time. Congratulations on your dedication and commitment to your blog and finding your thing!

    • bestthingsinlife1964 May 24, 2016 / 9:47 pm

      Thanks Lisa. At some point you just have to leave any fear or lack of confidence in the rear view mirror and just go for it. Hope to get back to bootcamp soon.

  2. fifi + hop May 24, 2016 / 8:04 pm

    Congrats on finding your thing. You’re a very honest writer, and there’s so much to be said for that. I, too, have found that my writing has changed over time. I think that’s a good thing. It’s hard to know at the beginning exactly what type of writer you are and will be until you’ve done it a while.

    • bestthingsinlife1964 May 24, 2016 / 8:26 pm

      Thank you so much. If you met me you would discover that I write pretty much the way I speak.

  3. thina1210 May 24, 2016 / 9:05 pm

    I have this temporary euphoria moment when I hit the publish button too… 🙂 Can relate much to what you have said here. Nice one.

  4. mariner2mother May 26, 2016 / 12:50 am

    Blogs evolve as people do. Keep on doing your thing, whatever that looks like.

  5. camparigirl May 27, 2016 / 6:48 pm

    I loved to read this. Mostly for the pleasure your words exude. Sometimes readers come and sometimes they don’t. It shouldn’t matter but we all need validation, right? Some of the blog posts I felt were important, fewer people read. Some that were composed in twenty minutes, became big. What do I know? I just keep on writing.

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